The darkness

Hands roaming, I hear voices, I going in and out of darkness." Please stop, I don't want to be here." "Please just take me home." In the darkness I start to cry. In darkness I ask myself how did I get to this place. What started as a night of fun turned into a nightmare. I was with someone I trusted who in turn, left me someone who they turned to escort me home. She was too drunk to drive and I was to drunk to think straight. We both thought I was in good hands. As we started on the journey to my home I backed out. But I remember the voices and touches. You see he was with a friend and they took turns, as I laid in a state of darkness. I feel a string across my face. "Yeah, bitch you know you like it." "Please God, save me." I don't know how long it lasted but when I came out of the darkness to voice "let's just dumped this bitch on the side of the road." "Please, don't I just want to go home." Car stop the door open. "Wait my friend live down the street just drop me off at the Wendy." I called my friend who just so happen to still be up. They left with my hurt and pain and a dark secret. My friend save my life that and they don't even know. When that gold Acura pulled up I knew I was safe. I never told a soul not even my friend. For many years I carried around this hurt. How could I be so stupid? The sad part is that wasn't the first someone used me as there own personal play toy. I don't know how to move on from this. It still hurts to think about. I have been raped, abused by people I have love or trusted. How do you get over the pain? I am stuck in darkness, please God save my soul. Please God deliver me from the darkness.